A new starting point ...

Now is a starting point ...
a whole new starting point...
of my life...
is the time to choose which college i should enter...
and to choose which subject i should take...
and pick a career ...
what i think now...
at this moment is ..
architecture ...
and the college which i thinking now is
Taylor's college...
this is what i thinking now..
does this decision will change?
i don't know ..
it depends on time n thing that i went through..
maybe it will change?
ha ha ha...
i am a newbie in this ...
i hope i can start in foundation then to diploma..
mean wan to suit myself in it before i start it
because if i direct forward to it...
in to diploma
and i cant suit myself in..
it will b a trouble ...
for me n my family...
it need time to suit something ...
but i hope i can manage to handle all this..
but it still have 2 month for my SPM result release..
maybe i can use all this time to think n think n think...
what really i should do...
it is hard ...
i think i should be more
relax..
enjoy...
ha ha ..
a step to my own life..
i am growing older ...

一直以来。。。人生路不易走啊。。。七情六欲常常都在左右我在对和错，黑和白，之间的选择。。。

人生道路。。。从我们自出娘胎开始已经很难走。。。
但是小时候有父母帮我做主和选择对的道路。。。
身为儿女的。。。在幼年时。。。只好服从和跟。。。
那时有父母维护，呵护，保护，和爱护下得以生存。。。
但是。。。有时有些事是没人能帮的。。。
父母的守护下也有漏洞。。。
那时自己本身的选择和自己前面的那条。。。
天堂路。。。还是地狱门。。。
人长大了。。。自然也会想。。。
但是。。。会思想不代表能独立，成熟，
要成为独立和成熟。。。是要经验。。。
。。。经一事，长一智。。。
是关键，
每次下一个决定时。。。
都会被自己私欲而影响到。。。
每个人也有七情六欲。。
但是能真真的能做出明智的决定是很难的。。。
一选择
没回头
漫步行
人生道
就算能做出一个明智的选择和决定。。。
道路也踏出了第一步。。。
就是第一步的踏出。。
不代表就会向前走。。
私欲会把我们拉回头。。。
再次的踏上那个不归路。。。
一步一步的。。。
人生道路。。从来没有人能容易的走完。。。
家家有本难念的经。。。
一家不知一家事。。。
但是。。我觉得是。。。
人人都在交叉路口。。
只可以选择一个。。。
每个人不知道另外一个人的路是如何走到的。。。
只能的是。。。
以笑迎接其他的人。。。
人人的痛苦自己知道。。。
人能在交叉路相见。。。
但是选了路。。。
也可能是再见。。。
也可能是永别。。
也可能是无缘之徒。。。
选择和决定。。。
选的对就带来好处。。。
选错了。。。
能不能回头就要靠自己的运气。。。
坚强坚定固执自己的决定和选择。。。
但是能不能
如此固执，
如此坚强，
如此坚定，
这个是问号。。
但是自己有没有如此定力？
能不能真的坚强坚定和固执？
还是一个迷。。。
要解开这个迷
答案就是在道路的尾端。。
路难行
但
逍遥自在和潇洒的走下去？
还是。。。退回？
以闲人之身？
还是以无聊之名？
只好笑着过吧。。。
哈哈

memorial of 2008 ...

It is been a long time since i didn't even write anything at here since the last post i publish...
in 2008 there is many thing that are bad n many things that i choose a wrong choice...
and the far more important is i take the wrong step within it...
what i can do about it...
i can't do anything about it...
what i can do right now...on the spot..is..to correct my path beyond me..into a better future...
it is so hard to correct something tat is wrong and deep...
but i already make the choice...
and i need to do it ...
the right path for me...
i know it very well...
i hope what i have doing now is a wise choice form a wise man...
what i have done over the time far behind ... is something for me to regrets..
but i cant do anything now if i still in there without doing anything to correct it..
well...
choice had been choose...
path had been take...
the only thing that i can do now is...
follow the choice n the path way of my life...
i choose when i am still have a sense of humanity...
what that i really did in the past is a mystery..
did i hurt anyone?
i guess the answer is
yes...i did hurt someone...
maybe...
but i think that better become a mystery
without
anyone or i who know it...
for being regrets...
i will do something and stop all my insane behaviour..
haiz...
this is what i can said...haiz...
for thing tat is so long..
but time will treat anything and memory will be in our mind...
hurt and sad will b taken away as the time pass...